My back........

is fucked. Moving heavy things is not recommended. Now I'm in constant pain, been in bed alllllllll day. Hopefully its better tomorrow. All it took was one heavy ass potted plant. Then bam! I thought it was better but getting out of the car this morning apparently made it mad and I got a shooting pain, I guess this is throwing your back out? I've done it before and this is no fun. Booooooooooo, everybody is sick too. Hopefully I don't get hit by that as well.

I'm shitting updates

So a lot has happened recently, I did finally get the "shrimp on the barbie" tattoo on the back of my leg as I have been stating for awhile and it is of course all I had hoped for and as dumb as I had hoped for. Some very interesting reactions from people that see it. Aside from that the job hunt has been a struggle that so far has not turned out too great but I am keeping hope that something will turn up. I also have had somebody very close to me reenter my life in a different way than they have been in the past. Not that they ever left my life but they have been in my life for the past 10 years as a best friend to me, the one person I have always been able to talk to about anything and has always been there for me no matter what. Now that person is there for me more than ever and has made me a better person just by being herself. The most ironic thing is a time capsule project that she found recently from high school that had notes from people that she had not ever read that were written 9 years ago. Just so happens one of them was from me. "by the time you are reading this we have most likely moved on and middle aged overwieght people and hopefully we are still friends" ha ha, close. 9 years ago I had written in this letter how much of a connection I had with her and that I had a crush on her all through high school. Now after all that has happened its a bit ironic. Who thought we would end up here 10 years later. We have and all we can do is enjoy it. Life is a bit easier to deal with when you have a best friend and more like her. All I can say is thank you, you are an amazing woman. End of story! Don't argue. :0)

Curse

With every lasting breathe,


I'll curse you to hell


Did you think of the demons that rotted your heart


In the closet lives the memories from another day


Slice to spill the blood of the past


You slice, she dies


I'll feel no remorse for the weakness you show


You've cursed yourself into eternity


With every lasting breathe


I'll curse you to hell


Will you break out and scream


For the people that won't be there


Theres no key for this curse around your heart


Locked up for eternity


With every lasting breathe


You've cursed yourself to hell


A curse


On a rotted heart

Me

So this was originally posted by friend Dan awhile back, we went and saw him live about a week ago and thought i'd post this up on here anyway. Its always a humbling experience to have somebody say everything you wish you could think of saying.

Author, actor, comedian, and singer, Henry Rollins, is a remarkable influence. I've seen him several times live, on his spoken word tours and have read many of his books. As a constant champion of the freedom of expression, he undoubtedly has a lot to say. Here are some quotes which, I think, are among his most thought-provoking and entertaining.

1. "Don't do anything by half. If you love someone, love them with all your soul. When you go to work, work your ass off. When you hate someone, hate them until it hurts."
2. "I believe that today more than ever a book should be sought after even if it has only one great page in it. We must search for fragments, splinters, toenails, anything that has ore in it, anything that is capable of resuscitating the body and the soul."
3. "If you hate your parents, the man or the establishment, don't show them up by getting wasted and wrapping your car around a tree. If you really want to rebel against your parents: outearn them, outlive them, and know more than they do."
4. "Go without a coat when it's cold; find out what cold is. Go hungry; keep your existence lean. Wear away the fat, get down to the lean tissue and see what it's all about. The only time you define your character is when you go without. In times of hardship, you find out what you're made of and what you're capable of. If you're never tested, you'll never define you character."
5. "You always know the mark of a coward. A coward hides behind freedom. A brave person stands in front of freedom and defends it for others."
6. "Knowledge without Mileage is bullshit to me."
7. "What's the landmark near the place where F. Scott Fitzgerald died? The Virgin Megastore. Time flies on wounded wings."
8. "You can get away with a lot of shit if it looks like that's all you know how to do."

My new tattoo.........

So I just finished my full sleeve and I know I have been saying I'm going to do a really stupid but funny tattoo. A tribute of a sorts to all the people that get shit tattooed on them that has no relevance to them, they just got it because it looks cool. So thins ones for you. Yeah, thats right, put another shrimp on the barbie hookers cuz this is goin on me this week..........what do you think?